The twice-a-year addict.

"If you find yourself alone, riding in green fields with the sun on your face, do not be troubled. For you are in Elysium." - Gladiator


This is the moment where the polygamist becomes the full-fledged traitor.

A child of America, thus a child of sport. No matter how strong a Europhile I may be, I cannot deny my love for the great American pastime. Baseball. Not my favorite sport, (nothing can touch the beautiful game in my passions), but only baseball can rival football (by which I mean soccer) for transcendence. It's piecemeal attrition. Politics. Ecstasy. Greed. A choir of 50,000 breaths hinge on a pitch, the crack of an ash bat, a runner's sprint to second. Games end in unbridled elation, only for everyone to realize there are 161 others just as important. All those victories yet to capture. All those emotions yet to be swayed.

My love for baseball doesn't mean I'm in a fantasy league, or can rattle off obscure decades-old stats, or even the rosters of my favorite team, but I get a rush from merely sitting in the grandstands.... I don't think it's strange that Roger Kahn's descriptions of Pee Wee Reese or Roy Campanella can bring me nearly (nearly) to tears. I think it's strange if it can't do the same to you.

My confession is that I've had 2 loves. The Cleveland Indians I grew up following, and the Los Angeles Dodgers, whom I know far more intimately, whose majestic park I've been to 40? 60? times in the past 15 years. The Dodgers of Jackie Robinson. The Dodgers of Elysian Park. You have to be there to appreciate that name, why the grounds around the ballpark carry that title. That's where I stood yesterday morning, visiting the stadium to pick up tickets for that night's game. I purchased the seats, aware that they would be for my last game here for I don't know how long. Years at least. I turned around from the ticket window with them in hand, and looked up to see the view above. The view from Elysium.

It's a view I've seen before, and one that I would see again several hours later, with the full spectrum of the skyline lights bursting through the palm trees, under a rich violet canopy of night. It was also the view that fans had leaving the Kirk Gibson pinch-hit home run game, the view during the summer fervors of Valenzuela and Nomo. More than a view. A Rubicon. What cemented the pendulum of my loyalty in favor of Dodger blue, even over the team I was born in to following. Traitor? Maybe. But I don't find it strange that it meant that to me. I find it strange if it can't do the same to you.

This shift has very little practical impact. I'll be in Middle East during the World Series, and living in New York by next baseball season... in both cases far from the view from Elysian Park. But if you're looking for practicality, don't start with baseball fans. Even if I only attend 2 or 3 games a year, can't tell you the batting order Joe Torre favors, or what pitches were in Sandy Koufax's arsenal, the love remains the same. My rationed presence only heightens the senses, devotion magnified by distance. Until the next time I hear the crack of the bat echo throughout Dodger Stadium, join in the chorus of roars. Walk through Elysium with the sun on my face, taking in the view.